Social Anxiety is a bitch.
If I walk into a large crowd of people, I feel as though everyone's eyes are boring into me and I have to turn away or else I feel like I'm going to suffocate. It's horrible, as I know that no-one is staring at me or judging me, I know that it's all in my head, but I can't help it.
Even walking around school at times, a place where I've been nearly everyday for the past 6 years of my life, I feel my eyes glaze over as a defence mechanism. Pretty sure that it makes me look either creepy or mildly stoned, uh oh.
Aside from my eyes glazing awkwardly, I find that on days where I'm more anxious than not, that I seem to wear brighter clothes, which is bizarre. I have a collection of colourful tights, and in the mornings if I feel like I want to hide, I resort to wearing a pair in an attempt to boost my confidence. That and wearing make-up most days now.
Does anyone else suffer from a similar sort of anxious response to social 'gatherings' in day-to-day life?
I'm not quite sure. I think I often avoid eye contact because I'm afraid of having to take part in a conversation but then, this behaviour seems pretty stupid.
ReplyDeleteEspecially when it's about people I normally don't talk with anyway (except for some small-talk words) or about or crush or anything....
never mind, I still have my friends :DDD
xoxo Jen
I don't really mind speaking to people, I used to be unbelievably shy when I was younger but something must have happened and now I'm the complete opposite! I always try and smile at passers by which helps build up a little bit of confidence. Try and relax and remember, they're probably not looking at you :) xx
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